Painstakingly honest, this chilling memoir reveals how a teenager became immersed in the bizarre life of legendary porn star John Holmes. Starting with a childhood that molded her perfectly to fall for the seduction of "the king of porn," this autobiography recounts the perilous road that Dawn Schiller traveled--from drugs and addiction to beatings, arrests, forced prostitution, and being sold to the drug underworld. After living through the horrific Wonderland murders of 1981, she entered protective custody, ran from the FBI, and turned in John Holmes to the police. This is the true story of a young girl's harrowing escape from one of the most infamous public figures, her struggle to survive, and her recovery from unthinkable abuse.

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At age forty-one Dawn Schiller begrudgingly had her first mammogram. Though she had no known family history of breast cancer her offspring would forever more depict a different story. While disease was familiar to her family, with her husband's diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis and her father's struggles with lung cancer, Dawn's journey through multiple surgeries, alternative healing strategies and reconstruction provides an obscure outlook of how to make lemonade when life gives you lemons. By sharing the laughter and tears shed at stages ranging from a diagnosis to reconstruction Dawn opens her heart to those who have been touched by breast cancer either personally or by someone they know. Dawn conveys her experiences with light-hearted humor and affection through her role as a mother, a wife, a daughter and an evolving woman. This is a story of strength and growth.